Datability

I haven't yet figured out this dating thing. I've had several roomies in my life that seem to have a high datability rating. The boys call and call and the girl seems to have a date every weekend, if not two as long as she's in town. Now, it's important to note that this datability factor doesn't seem to be related to the marriagability factor at all, since the the current circumstances of said girls vary from broke-it-off-to-serve-a-mission girl to happily-and-eternally-married girl. But what is it that makes a girl datable? Why is it that there are amazing girls crying in their pillows at night? I have brilliant friends, funny friends, beautiful friends, skinny friends, and "wifey" friends who hardly seem to date at all. The traditional answer seems to be, "Well, boys are dumb." And, really, I'd have to agree, but there has to be something else. What is a brilliant, funny, and pretty girl lacking that causes boys to overlook her?

When it comes to this topic there is this seed in my soul. A deeply sour and venomous seed. I guess that comes from too many years of sitting and waiting. Really, I can count the number of boys who have asked me out on one hand, and the total number of dates on two. Of the five or so that asked me, three are married and the other two were, um, shall we say not playing with a full deck? Maybe I'm too much of a traditionalist, and I want boys to ask me. If I like guy enough I'll ask him out first, but I've never had a second date with any of those, and I wonder sometimes if it's because I wait for them to do something in response. I'm really ok with not getting married any time soon, but a date every now and then wouldn't be so bad. Maybe some of the bitterness comes from not understanding. I had a boy tell me once, "Trust me, I'm not your type." What's that supposed to mean!? And, how does he know what my type is? Is this arrogance? A rejection? Insecurity?

I know that we've been told to make ourselves attractive, that's a frustrating thing. I'm fighting the same weight battle I've always had, but that can't really be the only thing, can it? If it is the only thing all I can I say is that I'm happy not to have married such a shallow person. The only guy who seems to notice any changes in anything I try is seriously dating someone else. *Sigh* I'll miss him when/if they marry; they're really a well-made match. What can I do? It doens't seem logical to go anywhere to meet people that I wouldn't normally want to go, like to a club, simply because if I met a guy there we'd have one thing not in common already. Presumably he'd be there because he wanted to be, but I wouldn't. Too bad concerts, rehearsals, basketball and football games don't seem to be great places to meet guys.

Three Day Weekend

I love these days. I feel like I have so much to do, and no drive to do them. This last week I've been so busy, and just needed to sleep. So, that's what I've done. I took a nap after work yesterday, slept for 9 hours last night, and took a little snooze after breakfast. I feel pretty good right now. I think I'll go walk a bit on the treadmill, then maybe enter some notes in Finale, or do some lesson planning. I do need to some shopping and retrieve a pizza pan from school today, but it's only noon, I still have lots of time. Such is the illusion of a break from school.

Lately Fluke has been giving me audiobook files. She's the audiobook queen, I think, but if I had her job I'd be like that, too. I've been listening to The Hunchback of Notre Dame and reveling in the language and story-telling prowess of Victor Hugo. I think this must be why I enjoyed Les Miserables so much. I'll have to read that one again. Ususally I just listen in the car when I drive long distances (usually to Fluke's house, now that I think of it), but I have taken to listening to this one while cooking, exercising, and roaming the internet.

Back in the Groove

Well, I think I have almost successfully re-admitted myself into school mode. I am still sleepy in the morning, but that's not really that unusual. I think I need to teach at a school for the nocturnal. Or at least, the semi-nocturnal. Instead of 8 to 3 we could meet from 10 to 5 or something.

Mom helped me pay for a treadmill for Christmas. This thing has been fun and has created some convenient exercise in the house. The first time I got on it and set a workout mode it kicked my butt. I haven't done that since, just been doing a freestyle exercise mode.

I think the week has been good. My students are doing alright, I'm ok, and all currently seems well. It makes me wonder what's coming... I guess I'll worry about that when it comes and until then try and prepare myself for what may come. Have a great week!

Woah, time flies!

It's been more than a month since I posted?! I really got sucked into work and play. My two band concerts went well, I think. The kids played pretty well, but not devoid of mistakes by any means. I performed in two concerts on french horn, too. I played with the Wasatch Winds and with the Cache Community Orchestra. Both went well, especially considering I'm a trumpet player. I'm kinda excited to get back into the normal swing of things, though. I have some good ideas that I think my students will like.

I went to Arizona for Christmas. Michele was kind enough to drive me to her house, let me stay, and then take me to the airport. Well, we actually went there in Steve's truck because it was snowing so bad the day I flew out. My flight was delayed a half hour and after the drive from Tucson to Pima it was almost 2:30 AM before we got home. We had a good holiday, I like my parents, but their town is kinda boring. Wal-Mart and Basha's are the two most entertaining things in the area. Right now I'm at Michele's again. We played games for New Year's and ate food.

Hey Melissa, I'm gonna need another reminder to get bck in the habit...